Once upon a time....

there was a girl with good intentions and dreams to take all that was rolling around in her head and put it somewhere for someone else to look at and read it. Then life happened, and she didn't have the time to do what her  hearts desired her to do, and as she aged she realised that no one really wanted to know what things rolled around her head, so a few have asked and she has shared what was on her mind and she was happy truly happy.
I started this blog about 7 years ago hoping that I would have the time and the audience to share some of my little thoughts and insights, they were so profound to me, as I am sure many of you can agree with the things that we produce from our minds and our hearts.
I need to stay centered and find the joy of sharing regardless of who reads, listens, heeds.....it is my joy and it makes me feel happy, and if I'm lucky enough I'll live happily ever after!

Decisons...

       

I have never been good at decisons, Y's in the path, red or yellow, chocolate or vanailla. I always worry that the other direction, color, or flavor would be better. There have been 6 times in my life that I KNEW without a doubt that I was making the right decisions, one is when I married my husband, and the other is with each one of my 5 children.
The past few months have been a rough patch for me, I believe a huge part of that was falling victim to S.A.D (seasonal affected disorder). This was a very dark winter, and this SPRING/SUMMER girl found  the effects of lack of sun on a person can be a real reality, but with the seasons changing and it staying light longer, and being able to open the windows and smell the fresh air I have been renewed.
I have gone from hoping I'd get the house somewhat liveable to clean and organized, laundry is done, school is happening on a daily basis, things are getting back to normal and I love it. I am beginging to thrive again.
So what does this have to do with decisions? I have given an oppurtunity to serve God in this upcoming year, and I am so conflicted on making wise decisions. Things feel so good now at home, now that Mama gear is turning again in proper sync, that there is a huge part of me that doesn't want to disrupt it. Like getting reception on a tv...DONT MOVE, HOLD that postition. This is a humble oppurtunity, but will consist of a lot of work, or at least a lot of commitment.  I don't want to choose wrong for me or my family, but neither do I want to choose wrong for the work HE will do  in and through me. Prayer, prayer and more prayer then listening, listening and more listening that seems it is what is in order, I just wish sometimes he would pin a note to my shirt like they did in kindergarten. "To guardian of _____________, She is needed to say ____________ to the issue of ____________, in order for _____________ to occur. With Best Regard and LOTS of love, GOD"

                                               

Forest???? All I can see is Trees!

In the midst of times of trial, I find that I quite often loose sight of the truth. I get so lost in the trees I forget that I am in the forest... I think it is safe to say that from time to time we all feel that way. We want to be in the forest, that is what we have desired...but once we get there walking through it all we can ask ourselves is "are we there yet?" or "I bet the view of the forest is  gorgeous , if only we could get rid of all these trees".
I have been walking through, it for a little bit, desperately wanting to become something...looking for the forest, that pivotal point that I say " I made it, I'm here" but I have learned a truth...I'm there, I made it! I am that person, even the people that we look up to or are inspired by, are striving... it is human nature. Accepting that make all the difference in the world! It is permission to revel in our progress, to enjoy who you are, not who you'd like to be! To say I HAVE ARRIVED, and the forest is beautiful!

In search of the GOOD rut...

We all have a normal, a groove that we work very hard to not get into, because we know once we do that  it is a heck of a thing to get out of it. Maybe it's getting out of routine with laundry, or maybe its eating that last piece of cake, or maybe its that one more drink. How do we reset our groove? How do we make it so that once we do the healthy thing for our bodies, bank account, relationships, that we have the same trouble getting out of that Good rut? I want that kind of rut, I want the Good rut. The one you Don't want to get out of because of all the benifits and Blessings that come with being in it.  I know it is obtainable because I know people who are like that! This is what I strive for, because once I can let go of my weight, my house, my bank account, and all the other things that keep me weighted in that rut, I am in a better position to find the Good Rut, the happy rut, the one that makes you sit at night and say "Today was ANOTHER good day"...So Im in the search for the GOOD RUT!

Let us choose what is better...

War is real. Real people die, bad people die, and good people die. War is Real. Our military is not just a protection shield you throw up, or a sword you swing, it is made up of REAL people, people who willingly joined the Military to protect our nation in a time of War knowing that they would be put to the test. They joined because they were not just willing to be a part of the shield and sword but because their sense of DUTY propelled them to. They are aware of their duty, and they are prepared to do their duty at all cost even death; their families know their duties and accept that ultimate cost is a looming possibility. However to those who only see us as a shield and sword; please do not assume to know what duty is, what is your duty? Are you prepared to die for your duty? Are you called upon to go yet again into someone else’s backyard and put your life on the line, again? And if so would you? Our military will yet again if asked because it is our duty, but let it be the better choice.

“Martha, Martha,” the Lord answered, “you are worried and upset about many things, ⁴² but few things are needed—or indeed only one.^[a] Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.” Luke 10:41-42

Let us choose what is better.

I want to do so much.......

Who out there can relate to this thought? I want to do so much there just isn't enough time to do it all...I want to sew, I want to read, I want to blog, I need to clean, I want to play a board game with my kids, I want to go to the library,I want to take pictures, I need to clean out the closet ...... and the list goes on and on and on. This has always been my hang up, to be a renaissance woman in my mind. 

The key is to take one thing at a time, this take restraint, and wisdom, but is almost more rewarding because I find that my list making mentality appreciates being able to mark something off the list. An accomplishment of sorts. So I have spent the day linking up all my social media and blogs with each other ( which has been on the To-Do), and to be honest I'm not sure that it wasn't a waste of time as well, as I'm not sure what I'm doing. Blogging is one of those things I desperately want to be good at as I love the outlet it offers me,  and as it most things the beginning is the hardest part of any new endeavor.

When it rains....

This week we had some rain, not much but then again it doesn't take much sometimes to flood the swamp. So this made me think about life, are the areas in our life that are like that of a swamp? Where we feel that on outward appearance, we are setting on solid ground, but all it takes is for a little "rain" to fall and we soon realize that our path is flooded.
I like how the "halo" of the sun through the leaves, almost like hope.